~rainbow mondays~ majestic

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pink: frosting color requested by the birthday boy, and provided in hippie cake approximation, according to his specifications. (a separate birthday post will be forthcoming! seven!!!)

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orange: newts!

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yellow: first daffodil bloom, at the foot of our driveway.

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green: i got to take a sunday drive out into the forest to gather firewood with my honey, and luckily brought my camera along. we passed lots of parked trucks as people were out fishing in the yachats river. and so was this majestic creature.

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blue: speaking of majestic creatures… these two hawks were perched together on a branch on my way into town on saturday. it’s been a wilderness week… with a nice blue backdrop for some of it!

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purple: vinca blooms – i forget that they come this early.

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brown: yet another wilderness moment, one of the regular visitors to our backyard.

~rainbow mondays~

a splash of color on monday morning

a photo study documenting the colors of the spectrum: the balance points between light reflected and light absorbed

hummingbird husbandry

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not only do i have rich to thank for the camera that is allowing me to take these photos with wild abandon, i also need to acknowledge him as the primary caretaker of our hummingbird flock. while they are all snuggled into their little hummingbird-down sleepingbags just after dark, and i am connecting up my camera to the computer to download the latest batch of 92 photos of the same bird, rich is dutifully boiling four cups of water and adding one cup of sugar, getting the next morning’s dose of “crack” ready. as soon as we awake, we will look across the room to the sliding glass door and watch the feeding frenzy, already in full swing for the day, and comment to each other on the birds’ behaviors, the antics of the juvenile siblings, and the rate of depletion of the feeder the day before.

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which is to say, i’m really, really lucky. as i sort through photos, waiting for photoshop to load them up so i can increase the contrast and crop them, i sneak glances over toward the tall, dark, handsome man standing at the stove with his excellent yogi posture, stirring sugar into water, pulling it off the heat, letting it cool, carefully pouring it into the feeder that lately is emptied once each and every day. (it’s possible to watch the “glug” of air bubbles as all 8 stations on the two feeders are occupied at once, with more hummingbirds zooming in to try to double up at the feeding trough!) i watch his face, his wide brow peaceful and his strong jaw relaxed, caretaking these tiny beings who bring joy to our whole family.

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around the farm ~ birds and bees

as we approach the peak of gardening abundance, it is hard to squeeze in time to post and share all the beauty and bounty! this will be photo heavy and easy breezy on the words, in that spirit.

my entire last roll of film contained only photos of flowers with either a bird or a bee in the frame, and i’m sure there is something witty i could say about that, but… so little time.

the bees have been all over our yard, which is heartening! i have been reading many a report of lack of bee sightings, and i don’t think i have a particularly amazing bunch of apiary plants around, but i do have some tasty borage flowers (tasty for humans, too!) and a sprawling butterfly bush they like to visit, as well as several other types of flowering plants. bees are so important to the garden ecosystem, and i think often we forget that when we are in a rush to grow as much food as we can, and we tend to be heavy on the food crops and light on the plants that attract beneficial insects. the beauty for human enjoyment should also be factored in, and may even count towards more produce come fall, since i find the more flowers abound, the longer i tend to linger in the garden to just tend one more little thing…

quinn chose this gorgeous dahlia (it has lovely dark foliage) as his farmer’s market “treat” a few weeks ago. he intuitively understands the need for beauty.

there is the busy little bee himself, tending his strawberry plants.

our very first sunflower to open was also on the darker side, a gorgeous evening sun variety. this one makes me smile in particular because my bff not only loves sunflowers, but this is her color scheme- black-red-purple-orange? black cherry? hard to put a name on it.Β  only a handful of our sunflowers have survived, but up against the house seems to be protected from the wind enough to let them reach maturity. (it gets pretty windy here during the summer.)

sunny number two was opening just this morning! and there are more babies on the way… exciting! just in front of the sunflowers, our popcorn is looking amazing, with tassles dripping pollen everywhere, and several ears already forming!

on the darker side of things again, my cat has developed a morbid interest in capturing hummingbirds. πŸ™ i don’t think i’ve ever been angrier with her! thankfully, only one mortality has occurred, but she put two other tiny birds in serious shock, before i was able to get them from her and release them. the little one above is one of the survivors, if you can believe it. hard to describe, the feeling of a hummingbird in complete shock, heart beating a zillion times a minute in the palm of your hand, and them zoooooooommmmm! off it flew. sorry, babies. i am keeping kitty inside at your active times, because i am so happy your little family has been living in our yard!

may the boundless joy and energy of the hummingbird bless your garden as well!

here be dragonflies

when i moved to the oregon coast i was completely unaware of the fact that it is a migratory corridor for dragonflies. i hadn’t even known dragonflies were migratory. apparently, there are both resident and migratory forms of dragonflies among the many dragonfly species, and seasonal north/south migrations happen all across north america. this phenomenon happens on every continent sans antarctica. incredible.

get this. the ones that are born in the north and migrate to the south, are thought to be a different generation than the ones who are born in the south (offspring of the ones who originated in the north) and migrate northward. neato! this is similar to what happens in some butterfly species, but it is mind blowing, to say the least. i dare you to wrap your mind around how this can possibly work!

major directional flights reportedly follow the passage of cold fronts, and trace topographic leading lines… like our coastline, for example. some people apparently attach radio transmitter devices to individual dragonflies, to find out this sort of thing. with a combination of eyelash adhesive and super glue. you have to read the primary literature to learn those tricks of the trade…. according to these authors, attaching such equipment to a tiny creature is rationalized by the fact that they mate on the wing, and that they routinely carry prey larger than themselves. (however, are they going to successfully mate, and capture prey larger than themselves while hauling a radio transmitter?! hmmmm, something tells me that’s not the question being asked… it always bugs me when research critters are deemed “expendable,” as long as the research is “sound” and that goes for the research going on in my own lab!)

loosely related to this topic,Β  i have just finished reading wendell berry’s life is a miracle, and have been challenging myself to really try to exercise all the different ways of knowing, and allow those ways to have conversations across disciplines in my head. what i mean by that is, you can take a subject (say, dragonflies) and look at it through the lens of science, or spirituality, or art… there are many different ways of knowing that complement each other, and yet the way i was trained in public school and university was very much to keep each discipline in its own separate little box. that includes the “multidisciplinary” department i belonged to in graduate school- i have to say that my education there was almost entirely accomplished within the scientific mode, and did not really do much to stretch me to cross disciplines. berry has a lot to say on this, and is far more eloquent than me, so i’ll leave it at that and continue with my own attempt at seeing all sides of the dragonfly…


at an earlier stage in my life, dragonflies were somewhat of a totem animal or spirit helper for me. only now looking back is it obvious how their movement, speed, and dynamic lifestyle were so fitting for that transient time of my life. attributes of dragonflies as spirit helpers (and ways they help)Β  include:

finding true vision; visualizing and manifesting positive outcomes

tuning into deeply felt, butΒ  ignored, emotions

maneuverability and movement, propulsion into new ways of being and doing

transformations (they spend up to a couple of years in the mud as nymphs before they emerge and fly away! boy can i relate! and boy am i glad there are spirit helpers for this! transformation is intense!)

seeing around things from different angles; seeing color and light

“coming to understand who you truly are” really? that seems a tall order for such diminutive creatures to help with… still, they are miniature dragons, who better to help us slay (or befriend?) our inner ones…

hey, is it me? or do dragonflies soundΒ  highly qualified for the role of law-of-attraction mascot?

for a few years i saw not many of them… they’re baaaaack.

here’s my account of witnessing a recent mass dragonfly migration.

one of the things i do for myself is to occasionally spend my lunch hour on the beach. it’s part of the whole point of living here, after all. on september 24, 2010, i went to south beach state park and as i walked along the beach towards my “spot”, i noticed one or two dragonflies whiz by me, looking rather purposeful in their flight. after a few more, i realized i was smack in the middle of the southward annual migration (thankfully i had heard of it and knew what i was looking at!) when i got to my spot, i sat as hundreds of them flew past me in ones, twos, threes, and fours… not 30 seconds would pass in between a sighting. it was incredible! yet so subtle, that i am pretty sure the 20 or so other people out enjoying the sunshine on the beach did not even notice more than one or two of them, nor detect their unidirectional flight pattern. a truly awe inspiring half hour.

i took 25 pictures with my phone and magically happened to catch a few. i like these shots not because they are particularly picturesque, but because they show these little determined beasts in motion. (you can click on each thumbnail to enlarge and play “where’s waldo?” for fun.)

hello old friend, i am excited to learn so much more about you now.

when i first tried to draw one years ago, it turned out like a pressed dead flower (berry talks about “photographing the corpse” and how it doesn’t capture the essence of a thing, to know it scientifically in that way- the sum of all knowledge about a thing, does not equal the thing itself.) a few times in the past few months i have finally sat down to draw them again; but how to capture their movement on paper?

you can’t get a good look and really observe them until they stand still… or show up dead on the sidewalk on the bayfront. (yes i collect dead bugs…)

i’ve recently been exploring the idea of having a sense of place in the world, and how to craft a narrative of the life forged in that place. among the things i ponder are why i moved across the country, why some people never leave the town they were born in, and how a transplanted person such as myself could come to feel so at home in a new home, that they’d passionately want to save it from destruction. i feel this place has begun to take possession of me in that way, and me of it. the central oregon coast blows me away on a daily basis, and i fall farther and deeper in love with it. wendell berry has much to say (in not only this one book) about the importance of place and the importance of having a passion for a particular place, in our lives .

berry says of conversations with a scientist friend of his, “our conversation is always striving to be local and particular. it is full of proper nouns, names of places and people.” reading the dragonfly observations of the yaquina birders and naturalists, our local naturalists’ group, i read lots of that kind of language, and even recognized several familiar names of local folks. the narrative of place has been a topic on my mind quite a bit recently, and how we come to craft it- it seems to me berry has hit on something crucial here, with the local language thing. and aside from one’s personal narrative, people finding their way to loving a place wholeheartedly in this particular way is what saves a place, an environment, a habitat. science can study it all day long and can even tell us we “should” conserve, but at the end of the day, a place will be preserved only if someone loves it fiercely. i am with wendell on that one.

with regard to my dragonfly migration experience, one major thing stood for me from the ybn field notes: in 1994 it was noted that “previous Major Directed Flights have occurred only during the narrow 8/30-9/14 window.” i presume they meant that they have only been recorded then, rather than they had only occurred then. still, i felt kind of cool adding a new datum to the dataset, since my observation took place later, on 9/24. (i haven’t contacted ybn yet but plan to!) ybn only had field notes on the internet through 2003, so perhaps someone has already made a similar observation; also, from the notes, it is clear i am not the only local keeping an eye out for the wee dragons! for those who are interested, our local migratory dragons seem to be mostly of the species Sympetrum corruptum. the variegated meadowhawk, in the common tongue.

i find them to be very pretty, deep red and brown. i feel kind of defiant as a scientist, saying that. i guess i’m not “supposed” to think about whether they are pretty. but i do… and i want them to keep coming back here to visit me every year! it causes me to lay awake at night worrying about pesticides…

on 10/29/10 i had the chance to photograph a dragonfly up close, at seal rock state park. it wasn’t engaged in major directional flight, and was not S. corruptum, but i do not yet feel confident in its identification. but i do know there are people around here i can ask! people with names and faces and knowledge of obscure facts about insects.

as life is a miracle draws to a close, berry shifts from verbally bludgeoning e.o. wilson (yeah, you have to kind of look past that to find the good stuff), to a very personal glimpse of himself and his own family, particularly the lineage of fathers before him, and his son and grandson, all of whom have participated in farming for generations in the same place in kentucky. as one who has left the place of my birth, also a farm, and settled far away on a distant shore, i want to believe that i can nurture the same level of love for this land that i now inhabit, that i could have had if i had stayed put in rural central new york. i am not sure how that will go, but i am going for it, and i can already say that i love this place more than i could have imagined. at any rate, i am heartened by the little dragons of the air, who are born far away from where their parents were, and yet somehow know exactly where they are going and what to do. i am thinking that my inner dragons needed to grow some wings and take to the air… and i think somehow, i am going to know what i am supposed to do.

unschoolish weekend

he lights up my life. i just recently learned of martinmas, and was intrigued because everyone seems to walk around carrying cool handmade candle lanterns. when i finally read some of the stories of martin of tours, and how he was a soldier who helped a beggar by offering him half of his cloak (in the version i read, anyway)… something clicked! i have felt unsure how to celebrate veteran’s day (the holiday we typically celebrate on 11/11 in the united states). i do not celebrate war. i do honor those who serve our country in this way, but i have a hard time knowing how to reconcile honoring war heroes while simultaneously valuing peace. my father, grandfathers, uncles, great uncles all served in the military, and don’t get me wrong, i appreciate their courage. i just want us to do things a different (peaceful) way.

like sharing our cloak with someone less fortunate on a frosty cold night. like bringing light into the darkness, instead of violence. indeed, these members of my family have done many things in their lives (aside from their military service) that brought about peace, and so those are the things about them i wish to honor.

just more my thing, i guess. so i like this whole martinmas tradition, and next year i’m hoping to do more than just haphazardly recite from memory (having read it earlier that day online) the story of martin, and make a haphazard tea light in a jar “lantern” that we didn’t even carry outside, much less go for a walk with. in this way we can honor courage and service without taking the focus off peace.

on friday i got off work an hour early and had a chance to go outside while it was still daylight! when i offered the beach or the mike miller nature trail as options, quinn chose “no” and made his own suggestion: the bayfront. he is in love with that place!!! this boy is so interested in fishing and boats and lines (that’s rope to you lubbers). he just revels in it. see him reveling? he is carrying a trusty piece of line along for the walk, which he practiced tying up to cleats and tossing out into the water. he coils like a professional sailor, and has been tying some seriously impressive knots. his christmas stocking is going to be full of pulleys and clamps and caribbeaners and various lengths of line to add to his fun.Β  i can tell he is talking to me in this picture, likely making up one of his signature long stories, involving- you guessed it- boats and fishing!

i know he is going to pick up so many of the “basics” of preschool and grade school education, just through this one interest of his. i can see him wanting to get these stories on paper and how it is going to motivate him to want to write, for example… still a ways off, but i see it! i just love the way it makes his eyes sparkle and shine, just being on the docks.

speaking of becoming literate, while he was drawing this apple on his chalkboard yesterday, he was telling me, “the O letter starts with no, and the S letter starts with yes!” it made a certain mama who has been wondering if she should be more pushy about reading and phonics, rest a little easier in her hands off approach. he had a few months of not wanting to read much (unusual for him! but we went with it- i know he is an ebb and flow kind of guy and i never want to push it on him and ruin his love for stories). now this autumn he is ravenously plowing through chapter book after chapter book (i’ll post sometime soon about some of the favorites!). now he is asking pointed questions about which letters make which sounds (and expressing it in oh such cute backwards ways… have to love that while it briefly lasts!) i also caught him pointing last night at the G in curious george and saying to no one in particular, “g starts with george.” he’ll have that all sorted out in no time, i can tell.

drawing and crafting haven’t been his passion lately, but i am starting to see him want to pursue drawing again now, too. he went through a period of becoming easily frustrated with the drawings not turning out how he wanted, but he seems to be a bit more able to roll with it now. i think the “time off” from that has probably been a good thing.

music on the other hand… he seems to just have it in his bones and he can’t help but dance when one of “his” songs comes on. saturday night when we didn’t have any music playing, he sat down at his xylophone and started rocking out, and singing the bob marley tune “bend down low, let me tell you what i know….” beautiful. i got a bad recording of it using my cell phone. πŸ™‚

yesterday we swung by the aquarium, and visited some of our friends. we got to see the otters being fed. the aquarium always seems to give me a peek at the length of quinn’s attention span. about 3 minutes into the feeding, all of the other kids had badgered their parents to go onto the next thing. quinn seemed really content to stay for the duration of the feeding, commenting all the while on what he was seeing, and what was happening between the trainers and the otters. then after the feeding was finished, he and i stayed and re-enacted the things we had been talking about, taking turns being otter (stationing its nose on the trainer’s plastic ball-on-stick and then gobbling the yummy fish) and trainer (tweeting the whistle, holding the stick-ball-thing, and tossing the fish to the otter). here he is taking another long look into the sea lion tank, his friend max visible in the tank, swimming a lap.

sometimes i get caught up wondering what else i “should” be doing and whether i’m dropping the ball in some way with quinn’s educational experience. for me, it is a constant exercise in mindfulness to unschool. that includes keeping my own principles in view (e.g. his “education” is just a matter of life unfolding- i don’t need to contrive it!) and every now and then glancing at a handful of weekend photos and noticing how vast amounts of learning are being accomplished when we’re not trying.