~rainbow mondays~ snow capped nest

Sunrise on the icy farm.

This is my New York rainbow… as you may be able to guess, it features a lot of white! And a lot of a certain furry friend who is more of an off-white character.

FINALLY seeing my parents was just the best.

The weather was exactly the weather you’d expect for Central New York in January, but the light was lovely most days. The kitchen… site of the soap making Mom and I did together. I learned how to make the faves of the hick-a-rew household: lemongrass lime and vanilla sandalwood.

Mom also kept Christmas up at my request, which felt like it made sense given the snowy ambiance.

Any given day’s temperature report, but I was snug in my “writing loft” upstairs for week one, attending my second semester residency! I love going to writing school.

But Dad took one for the team and plowed the driveway over and over again.

But blue sky though! It was lovely the few times it warmed up to 20 and I got to take walks.

The longest walk I took was all the way to the east orchard (which they barely visited in 2021 due to excessive rain/mud), where I set eyes on Big Mama, the apple tree matriarch.

I spied many dormant bird nests around the orchard, which were easy to spot all capped in snow.

I watched a northern harrier patrol the fields.

And I spied a fox a few times!

My handsome husband joined me for week two. We had a great, mellow, trip, and made it home safe and healthy.

~rainbow mondays~

a splash of color on monday

a photo study documenting the colors of the spectrum: the balance points between light reflected and light absorbed

thankful thursday ~ more light

on my way to my first day back at work after the recent government shutdown, i mused that i was thinking a month of gratitude posts might be in order for february. my bff challenged me to go for it, and here we are! 28 days of gratitude it is!

 

28 days of gratitude ~ day 1

i am grateful for a school day off for quinn. as he was getting in the car to go to work with me in the morning, he said, “i love a foggy morning. the sun doesn’t blind you, but you can see just fine,” and buried his face in his minecraft book.

 

28 days of gratitude ~ day 2

i am grateful for date night. hot and sour soup motivated our choice for chinese food, and we were home watching the hobbit before very long. i am grateful for the ease of our friendship, the comfort of our rituals, and the secure feeling of knowing i am wanted.

28 days of gratitude ~ day 3

today i am grateful for the tiny snowfall that my son woke up to on what was already a day off from school. i am grateful for things i would never have been grateful for in another lifetime, had i not been given this human to raise, because i see things differently through his eyes (such as foggy mornings, and snow), admittedly beautiful things for which i could stand to grow my appreciation. and the gratitude feedback loops begin again, a mere few days into the month, as my gratitude for things my son is grateful for enhances gratitude in me, and reminds me daily how grateful i am to get to be his mama.

 

28 days of gratitude ~ day 4

i can just alternate between my son and my husband, and it would be true to the essence of my gratitude. i am grateful for the laughs we share over regular day-in-the-life things. when he brought his coveralls in from his truck to put on (usually he puts them on at work, but he wanted to wear his waterproof boots), i laughed about the name label (i’ve always found the man labels on shirts and coveralls inherently funny) and said, “you seem familiar, oh rich, that’s right. nice to see you again.” or something to that effect. and he bear hugged me and did other things that belied a closer familiarity than one requiring name tags.

 

28 days of gratitude ~ day 5

i am grateful for showing up to my karate class to the surprise of my son on the mat! i am proud of his growth in the area of self advocating, and grateful for the chance to witness him in the process of learning a new skill, without him knowing i was watching.

 

28 days of gratitude ~ day 6

i am grateful for clear night skies with an abundance of starlight. i also got to see a big round moon only revealing the tiniest sliver edge of itself as it headed for the horizon. light of any kind is something i am still appreciating disproportionately here on the other end of winter, though i am able to perceive the slightest lengthening of daylight at long last.

~rainbow mondays~ snow colors

 

it’s been a whirlwind week of fun with family in new york, and i have the rainbow to prove it. here is one of quinn’s hand-crafted birthday decorations, a rainbow octahedron, complete with barney the origami allosaurus, hanging in the rew kitchen!

we’ll start with white, the most abundant color in this rainbow. the goal of this trip to new york was to get quinn there to experience some snow, a goal he has held for several years. it was a little touch and go for a few days, after the leftover snow we enjoyed on day one had given way to 60 degree weather, but on his birthday eve, quinn’s birthday wish came true. he woke up to falling flakes.

white: by the time he had rolled his last snowball into his igloo  base, a good 6 inches had accumulated.

white: making the most of the aforementioned leftovers, the day of our arrival.

white: fancy ice formations

 

white: birthday eve snowman construction, while the snow continued to fall.

white: amazing how quickly it accumulates.

white: hard at work on his “security guard” at the top of the driveway.

white: after sledding his heart out, he certainly slept well that night!

white: one of the biggest kids of all is the one i’m married to…

 

white: winter wonderland!

white: and then… the storm was over and the sun came out! good thing we enjoyed it while it lasted!

red: playing near grampy’s barn on the day of our arrival with his cousins.

red: it was that certain kind of snow that sculpts itself into formations as it slides off the edge of the barn roof…

red: ida red and northern spy at the local cider mill where we got fresh warm donuts and got to see our foster cousins “andy and molly.” though these two sweeties are back with their mom, they will always be a part of our family.

orange: a happy boy riding downhill on a vintage sled.

golden-brown: the local herd visiting the lower field.

yellow: black-eyed susan stems at sunset.

yellow: sunset over the leftover snow on our first day.

yellow: golden glow on the windowpanes.

yellow: the last light of day casting the walnut tree’s shadow on the porch windows.

 

yellow: sunset on sparkly icicles.

green: shelter building on a much warmer day with cousins and newest foster cousin. this was our first meeting of this cousin, who shall be called schroeder (not his real name), for his attraction to the piano.

green: sawing limbs for the shelter.

green: wake up snuggle with grammy.

green: everyone loves to snuggle with her…

blue: confused geese, not sure which way to go on such a warm day between snow storms.

blue: the rainbows on the old harvestore silo have always made me happy.

 

purple: i let the other kids do most of the sledding and snow playing, but i did go down the hill once or twice.

 

purple: then i sat around taking photos of snowflakes and icicles and sunsets while i supervised the shenanigans.

pink-purple-golden sky at the end of a snowy day.

maybe i’ll just call it red violet.

 

~rainbow mondays~

a splash of color on monday

a photo study documenting the colors of the spectrum: the balance points between light reflected and light absorbed

~rainbow mondays~ snowing and growing

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white: more snow on the coast!

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red: quinn’s valentine’s day garb

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orange: looking out the window at the snow.

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orange: a glimpse at what my valentine has been working on in all his spare time.

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yellow: quinn’s glowing face at his early birthday party, held saturday.

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green: snow last week, but spring is ready to burst onto the scene.

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blue: an underwater lego land.

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purple: see what i mean about spring?

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brown: hobbit on pony.

~rainbow mondays~

a splash of color on monday morning

a photo study documenting the colors of the spectrum: the balance points between light reflected and light absorbed

~rainbow mondays~ and white

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red and white: santa the snow man in profile, borrowing quinn’s hat.

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orange and white: snow capped pumpkins

yellow and black

yellow and black: tiny sliver of moon

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green: perler beads becoming quinn’s favorite ninja turtle, raphael, while simultaneously (and secretly) improving his pencil grip.

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green and white: snowing in our forest home.

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blue and white: one happy child in a snowy backyard. “being out here makes me feel fresh!”

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purple and white: purple scarf-clad boy ready for yet another epic snowball battle! when i was ready to go in, he’d protest, “not yet, mama, it’s not epic yet!”

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preparing for epic battle

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i think this guy is pretty epic.

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white and more white: frosty crystals on my rearview mirror. hope you are staying warm!

~rainbow mondays~

a splash of color on monday morning

a photo study documenting the colors of the spectrum: the balance points between light reflected and light absorbed

very here now

i’m pleased with the steady creeping towards unpluggedness trend of my life lately. i am often to be found outside the reach of either cell phones or internet, and for two whole days last week i spent parts of it without power, landline, or any of that annoying stuff. if you’ve been watching the wacky weather and road conditions here on the oregon coast (c’mon, humor me) you’ll know we have had some wind, some rain, and a good deal of debris in the road, as well as flooded roadways and collapsed sections of highway.

 

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i found the two days of strandedness not to be at all a hardship but that could be related to my smittenness for the person i happened to be stranded with. it turns out we’re pretty evenly matched in uno but he can kick my ass in yahtzee. we listened to the hand-cranked radio for the flood warnings on wednesday, joking about the likelihood of being flooded in for a second day (the first day was chaos not because of floods yet but because of the wind/power outages/fallen trees/bridge closings) and then… we were. and none of that had anything to do with the dusting of snow we received to celebrate martin luther king, jr. day with.

art boy is still going strong… he is one thorough coloring book colorer. he gets every single detail, including the negative space, fully colored. he will spend hours on one page. i’m just soaking it all in… when i’m not busy helping him draw the rare lumpback chickadee, or color in the impossibly skinny tentacles on some jellyfish with a blunt crayon.

and i haven’t discussed with my man yet whether he wants his photo to appear here, so until i do that i’m only going to post a fuzzy one where he’s not looking at the camera. fuzzy and warm, like the inside of my heart.

 

quinn’s twenty-third month ~ self knowledge, christmas in ny, and bobbins

 

 

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12-22-08

before i put quinn to bed, he and i were sitting on the couch we were just reading books and all of a sudden this ambulance went by and blared its siren JUST outside our house. it was really short- it wasn’t like when you hear it coming, it was just all of a sudden BLAM! quinn basically jumped out of his skin and was trying to crawl into mine. he did not even cry, but it was like he went deep, deep inside for about ten minutes. i was just holding him and he grabbed my hand and put it on his ear (i put my hand on his head/ear sometimes as he is falling asleep, or if he is going to sleep in the sling, it’s something i’ve done since he was tiny and i realized it seemed to really help him fall asleep and lately sometimes he’ll basically “ask” for it by putting my hand there) and he had his other hand grabbing my hair to keep my face right up with his face- i had very little range of motion, i was basically either breathing on him or kissing him, or looking right into his eyes, that was all i could move, he was clinging on so hard. i was just telling him mama’s here and whatnot and it’s ok, and that was scary, wasn’t it? and he couldn’t even talk at first, then eventually i said, did you feel really scared? and he WHISPERED “yeah” and i feel like i have never seen him that vulnerable… he got so little again in that few minutes. so we sat there. i told him what it was, what a siren was, what an ambulance was, and why they make that noise, and i told him about when he was born and we had to go in an ambulance because, honestly, that is the only reason i can think of that he would be SO affected by that particular sound. loud noises in general scare him, but THIS…. this was something beyond that. it totally triggered something for him, so i told him all that, in as least scary way as i could, and just held him and rocked him and then i asked if he wanted to lay down and have milk and he was still just above a whisper “yeah”. so he went to sleep but so did i, and then i woke up and came back out, but he was pretty fitful making dream-sounds until i came to bed, and several times i went in just to put my hand on him while he dreamed and breathe next to him so he’d feel me there, and that seemed to calm him down.

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opened presents in AM with mama, saw dada after nap. left for airport 7 pm. drive in snow…. flying!

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still flying! “ear ladybug” not sure what he meant by this… arrived at syracuse 12:20. Grampy and Uncle B picked us up in the “green car”.

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christmas morning!

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pdx… on the way to new york!

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12-28-08

merry christmas!!!!!!!
quinn and i got to just relax and settle in today with my mom being the only one around for most of the day. yest was a different story. he slept the whole second leg of the flight, woke up as we landed at 12:30, and then was up and playing and seeing everything until maybe 5 and then napped ALALLLLLL evening and woke up at 11 lol. he then kept me up until 1, and i had been ready to nap with him at 5 so i was LITERALLY falling asleep reading him books in bed, i would get through half a page and doze off, and he’d go “mama” and i’d continue the page. then we slept until 8am. it’s the rew family farm… last night was the picnic and i thought quinn was gonna wake up for that but that was when he ended up sleeping till 11. so he missed the picnic and so did i basically- i took him up
to bed and when i got back down it was over. i got to hold talan and quinn together for a few minutes at the beginning right before q dropped off, and it was just so cool. talan is so squishy and has fuzzy head still and oh. he is just adorabubble. and quinn is having an incredible time playing with the funniest things. today he got more mileage out of a 12-pack of sewing machine bobbins (the little thingies you wind thread on) and we were stacking them and rolling them down things, etc. all afternoon. he and i didn’t evem open most of our presents yet it has just been all funky.
tonight i go to tim and nat’s, and tomorrow morning to mary ellen’s, and everyone comes back here tomorrow night for dinner.

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sunshine on the porch

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baking bread

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our old rocking horse.

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helping grampy pay the bills

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and some way better photos, from my mom’s camera!

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headed home to oregon

 

1-2-09 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

pupple (purple)

pockets – compost

words in new contexts

Quinn loves the sunnins (sea lions) and calls to them a lot.

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“hi little milk”

“kiss milk”

“almost gone”

“crow in there outside”

panini and walk down to the ocean.

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folk musician, age one.

1-6-09

had a conversation with my bff about how “quinn alwyas looks like a boy who KNOWS WHAT HE WANTS and knows what he’s doing.”

my response: i LOVE that you said this. more than you can imagine… it is really important to me actually because i see other babies and i see a lot of toddlers around with glazed over eyes and they don’t really seem to have much of a mind of their own, they just go along with things, or they have a tantrum or get into mischief sometimes, but it’s just different. quinn ALWAYS at ALL times has an agenda, and knows what he would like to do. or what he needs from me. and it is very encouraging because that has always been my goal. i believe that if you are constantly telling a baby no, and not giving them what they ask for, they learn that they are not capable of communicating their agenda, and they stop having one. whereas if i tell quinn yes, and i do my best to give him what he wants or at LEAST acknowledge “yeah those CDs sure would be fun to play with but here’s why we can’t…” which oddly enough is all he usually needs, then he’s happy to do something else… my point is, he has always been reinforced in knowing what he wants by being told he is a good communicator and therefore i think he has even MORE new grand ideas and schemes. i just love that you observe these things even just through pictures and stories, and you are picking up on things that are so near and dear to my mama heart and yet i don’t think i ever really put it to you that way before.

bff: “one thing i DO notice and compare to other peoples kids/stories, etc… is the way you two play. a#1) quinn is always doing something b#2) it’s something …i don’t know how to explain it…but smart and freeing…not a plastic toy that plays itself and lights up and makes noise. he makes his own noise and plays his own games. it tOTALLY comes across in the pictures…NO DOUBT about it…a) how smart he is and b) that he knows what he wants.”

me: i guess i think of it as a goal because of where i’m at in my own life, as an adult, and not really always knowing my own mind. i really want him to have a different experience, and to always know what HE wants. for himself… if that makes sense. i think it causes me problems, and i think it starts in early childhood. well it starts when you’re born. there are many moments like that- and yeah redirecting (let’s go make muffins instead) is a good way to deal, but at least for me, it is important to first say, i know you want to do x, here is why we can’t, i understand why it would be fun for you, or i understand you feel disappointed/sad/mad that we can’t. now let’s help ourselves feel better and go bake muffins…. or something along those lines. like not to cut off his plans for x, and distract him, i guess is what i mean- i guess for me the validating thing is a biggie- i let him know i heard him and his feelings are valid, even though we still can’t do x.

he wanted “doot doot” on the stereo and to lay on me on the couch with the pretty lights in the living room. (lately we’ve had “doot doot” on repeat – it’s pete seeger singing she’ll be coming around the mountain but quinn calls it doot doot) and then he wanted “rocking chair milk” when i suggested laying back down in the bed for milk. no, rocking chair milk. he does know his mind.

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watercolors

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“in the garbo” and “tomp tost!”

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“hi little milk.”

“other milk pretty please.”

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mom went to work all day. it’s fun coming home and running up to the window where Quinn is standing, watching him laugh hysterically through the glass.

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latch-on kisses are hilarious. he is very affectionate. loves hugs and kisses. every so often he snuggles up – one day recently he just laid on my lap for a full five minutes, took my hand and “asked” me to play with his hair. We had a long “milk bath.” We had a talk about angry – “angee Quinn!” – mama and dada had been angry with each other. i told him the best thing to do was to use words if he feels angry and talk about the feeling, so he did.

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Quinn’s language is amazing; though I have left off recording the new words he uses, it is only because he can say ANYthing now! he will specifically request certain CDs “bop diwin” (bob dylan), “bop marwey” (bob marley), “uncoo jewwy” (jerry garcia), “johnny hookoo” (john lee hooker). He now clearly says “outside” which not too long ago was “o-zye.” many examples of this new clarity. he parrots ridiculous phrases with his dad “what up dawg” (he asked me this in the bathtub), “sup wit dat dude,” “sup dude,” and so on. he is doing it with me too but it’s more subtle… “how bout min-amin?” i am always asking him what he’d like to do “how about…?” tonight i said “know what? we forgot your pink vitamins – we should go take those! and he replied, “know what? pink min-amins!”

I set up his shadow box tonight (we bummed the nails together actually), and he had fun adding rocks, people, and pirates. He stood there rearranging his little plan toy wooden people for quite some time.

As for the above mentioned CDs, Quinn’s favorite songs right now are trenchtown rock, she’ll be coming around the mountain sung by pete seeger (known as “doot doot”; i printed a CD with 12 copies of the same song to avoid having to get up every time he needs to go back and hear it again!) tangled up in blue, and teddy bear’s picnic (jerry garcia and david grisman).

1-17-09 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

“noah day!” is what Quinn called today because we got to have trina and noah over to play! the boys had such a great time together. they had every toy in the house on the floor – trains, blocks, markers, balls, little people everywhere! oh, and the toolboxes – Quinn has two, and they are chock full because some of mama’s tools live in them now, too, as they became safe enough for Quinn to use.  Both boys were rubbing their eyes by the time they had to leave and Quinn went immediately down for a nap.

what the grizzly knows (book)

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bust a move at seal rock

giggling in sleep

rocks “plunk!”

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“silly mama/silly dada” and lots of 3-5 word sentences.

“yesterday”

“patoes in the fridgerator”

1-22-09

i am so impressed with him. tuesday we had him with summer for the hour while we went to counseling… and he did GREAT. did not cry when we left, or anything. then that night i was playing a puzzle with him, and i said, oh i saw you doing a puzzle with summer today, just like this one, did you have a good time with summer? and he nodded and said “yeah!” then he kind of got all serious and thoughtful and said “sad”. i wasn’t SURE that was what he said so i asked, did you feel sad? yeah. oh, were you sad when mama and dada had to both leave? yeah. and i said, oh i understand, that is a sad feeling. and then i said, were you happy when mama and dada came back to get you? Yeah!
and that was the end of the conversastion, he was ready for milk/bed. he is so awesome. i just love that he is starting to come up with his own assessment of his feelings…. like i am just learning how to do now at age 30. it wasn’t even in response to me asking how he was feeling- he just offered it out of the blue. my babe of a baby. he is TWENTY THREE MONTHS old!

quinn’s twenty-second month ~ “piddy yites”

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11-25-08

some of his musical faves are:
baby loves jazz
taj mahal young at heart
not for kids only jerry garcia and david grisman
a children’s celebration of folk music
in harmony (sesame street tribute)

but he really loves regular music just as much, honestly. i can put on michael franti and he is just bopping away. he loves happy upbeat music basically, but even “pretty” quiet music gets him dancing- he is so into dancing, i just love it.

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he’s riding on his moose and holding his apple that he asked to eat, and when he got the apple from me he put it into a yogurt cup to eat it- so here he is with it munched all the way down to the cup like an ice cream cone.

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awe and wonder; christmas lights at the aquarium

11-28-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

Q and I went to nye beach this morning – no wind! it was nearly high tide, so not much beach was exposed. i drank coffee and tried to sit up straight and stretch while Q dug in the sand. he napped early and i napped with him, so no break, and then the nap only lasted an hour, so we had a few cranky moments together in the afternoon. later we went to the aquarium to see the christmas lights, Q was truly mesmerized by the reflections on the stream. he really liked the tunnel. we had more turkey for dinner.

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we went down the coast today. first we stopped at the water spout because it was high tide. big waves today! then we drove up ten mile creek which goes into the siuslaw national forest. we hiked down to the creek (Q in the sling) we threw rocks in the creek (splash! plunk!) then hiked back. on the way home, we stopped at the cape perpetua visitors center to buy a map, but Quinn was taking his second nap so he didn’t go inside. then we stopped at the store where Q requsted “ba-na-nas” and went home for more turkey, sweet potatoes, and salad. Quinn had a good evening of coloring with mama, and went to sleep at 9.

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4 day weekend. went for a wonderful mid-day sail. when we got home Q wanted to read zen shorts a whole bunch of times. his favorite character is the little girl, addy. (“where did addy go?” he asks when we are on a page where she is not depicted.)

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he kept choosing his yellow fleece jacket all weekend- he LOVEs yellow. he has fleece in every color of the rainbow and sometimes i give him two to choose from, or sometimes i say what color jacket do you want to wear? if yellow is an option, he picks yellow. i finally had to wrestle him out of it last night because it is filthy and needed to be
washed (and not worn to bed).

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sunday we went for a sail, which was awesome, the best sail yet, super nice weather but enough wind (not cold) to basically go across the bay, and it was just very cool. here’s the boy in the bottom of the boat, snacking.

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12-1-08

i got him this new book, called zen shorts. i knew it was a bit older than him (amazon says it is K-grade 4 age) but i am just basically starting a collection, and don’t mind if he doesn’t want to read some of them until he grows into them or whatever.the first time or two i tried reading it to him, he got bored halfway and said all done. so that’s cool. but lately, and especially yesterday and last night at bedtime, he is now OBSESSED with the book. it is a story of three kids, addy, michael and karl, who met and panda named stillwater, and they each go to visit him and he tells each of them a story (all of which have zen meanings in them). quinn has a huge crush on addy right now- where did addy go? if i get too involved in one of the other kids, he’ll ask where addy is. but he does let me read through the entire book now, AND then he wants to start again at the beginning, or go back to an addy section and read that… over and over. i am so in love with my son. susan has said before (when Q started his “happy day” thing, which he still does) that she thinks he is a shaman or something. and i’m like…. hmmmmm. he is making me re-read and re-read these zen meditations to him…. or is he making me read them to MYSELF?

the last “zen  short” in the book is called the heavy load. 2 monks are walking (on a long journey) and they see this woman who is scolding her attendants because she has no way to get across this puddle without ruining her silk robes, and they are holding too many of her packages to help her across. the younger monk notices, and keeps walking. the older monk stops, carries the woman across the mud on his back, and puts her down. she doesn’t thank him, continues scolding her attendants. the monks continue on their way. then hours later, the younger monk has been stewing about it all day, and he finally says, hey, that woman back there was so rude and yet you carried her on your back! and she didn’t even thank you! and the older monk replies… i put the woman down hours ago. why are YOU still carrying her?

it just dawned on me last night (after quinn made me read it for the 4011th time) that maybe i need to stop carrying some stuff now…….
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he is pretty solid on green and red and blue and orange now. he has known purple and yellow for a while of course. he sometimes still mixes up the others, and i wonder about red-green color blindness and such, but i think it is just his brain getting them organized.
did i tell you he kisses me on the cheeks now? he says “cheek!” to get me to present one, then he kisses it, then grins at me, then turns my head and kisses the other one.

this morning i asked him to bring me his shoes and he said “tay mama” which i took to mean “okay mama”.
last night quinn asked to paint… so i got out a piece of fabric and taped it to the floor for him to paint on. but he got a little wild with the paint and while i had my back turned, he painted his whole face- i actually watched him surreptitiously rather than stopping him (it was much too late to save him from needing a bath anyway, so i figured what the heck) and he was so cute, the thoughtful look as he put red all over his right cheek. then i came back in and he told me “red face! red face!” then he was starting to get really nutty and trying to put his fully painted hands on furniture, so we got in the bathtub. he then refused to put on a diaper after bath was over, and ran into the kitchen to play, and then once again i turned my back for two seconds, and i heard “uh-oh mama, uh-oh mama!” and i look and he had pooped on the floor. hilarious. what an evening.
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he is getting really good about not putting things in his mouth. he sometimes still does, like with a little devil look on his face. but like this week i got out the crayons. he has been doing mostly markers because they don’t have that inviting “eat me” wax smell like the crayons do, but now he seems like he understand to just color with them. so we color with “tans” now too.

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12-6-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

aquarium with noah and trina. octopus, sea lions being fed, “hello butt” halibut, nummy-nee touch tank.

12-7-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

wake up: kiss! hug! happy day to you mama! up up up up up.

drizzly day. baked bread, books in rocking chair.

“quiet please!”

12-9-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

very independent about dinner – he opened (unzipped) his lunch bag, found crackers and apple slices left over, decided to put those on the plate with his half a breakfast burrito that I had showed him was for dinner, but had left on the counter because he hadn’t been hungry yet, then carried it all to his high chair, somehow climbed up into it and sat with the plate on his lap, eating.

12-10-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

“wow, guys!”

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yesterday after he napped he rode in the stroller and we went to the asian market to buy cookie cutters and thenwe made farm animal sugar cookies. after that i tried to get him to play with his dad who had just gotten there, and he kept coming back to me “tooking!” he loves cooking so much it’s hilarious. so he was spooning the beans onto the tortillas, adding the cheese. he thinks it’s the BEST thing in the world.

“read it again,” is something i hear a lot these days.

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i put up colored lights on the mantle this morning before quinn woke up and he was totally in love with them- wouldn’t sit in his high chair in the other room, because “piddy yites!” (pretty lights) were in the other room. so he ate his bagel on the couch and just looked at the piddy yites and kept saying it over and over.
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12-13-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

i’m  noticing Q’s “k” and hard “c” sounds have markedly come along – milk has gone from “milt” to “mulk”. he can say kitty. muppin is already muffin. we baked this morning while i talked to grammy – so that i could talk to grammy, actually. anything short of baking would not distract him from wanting the phone! mostly inside all day, just the two of us. later went to the library when we got a little stir crazy. played with the trains and dollhouse for a while, then got out four books to bring home including “blueberries for sal” “alligators all around” “richard scarry’s best counting book ever” and “spots, ? and curly tails”. we read all four of these, and more, before bed at 7:15!

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12-14-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

snow! woke up to snow on the ground! Quinn needed to go outside right away and check it out. we acted out scenes from ezra jack keats’ the snowy day.

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12-15-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

snow day! woke up to snow on the ground (a little more than yesterday) and becky closed for the day so Q and i stayed home!

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12-18-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

“yike olives.”

wanted to see dada, so I put him on the phone. “dada? oh, dada. talk to you later, bye bye dada!”

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12-19-08

quinn started saying “pretty cool, huh?” i realize i say it all the time when i’m showing him things… so he was figuring out that he could spin this string with a block tied to the end, and it would swing around, and he kept going “piddy too-el, huh!” (a statement, not a question.)

quinn said my name the other day. he was sitting at the dinner table with me, and i was preoccupied maybe i was  reading or just staring into space and he was going mama, mama, mama. (i realized after) and then he said,”mimi-beff!” i was amazed. he said it a bunch more times that night, but not since then (several days ago now.)

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12-20-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

asked for a clementine “back together”

“bummer dude.”

“otay.”

“awight.”

doot doot on repeat.

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12-21-08 (added on 8-20-20 from found notebook)

up from 4:30-5:30 needing “doot doot!”

painted this morning. rainy day – ona beach in am. very attached to raccoon and walrus babies – in sling, helping them go night night, feeding them last night (at 5am actually) he brought them to bed with us. brought them in car to go to the beach, etc.

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